I'M SORRY

It has been brought to my attention that I have severely angered MANY parents by my recent blog postings. I am so, so, so very sorry.  There are not enough words in this world to adequately convey my feelings of regret in you disdain with my musings.  Those postings most definitely WERE NOT anywhere close to my intentions whatsoever.  I simply wanted to give my side of the story because I believe I know that I have been painted in an extremely negative light over the course of the past few days since I tendered my resignation, but have not been allowed to have contact with anyone or speak my truth.  As you know there are always two, if not three sides to every story.  You have been hearing one and now you are not allowed to hear the second without repercussions.

I did resign and I resigned for very personal reasons.  I should NOT have elaborated upon them in any way shape or form here on this blog for the 5th graders to interpret. I should NOT have put them (the sweet, sweet students) in the middle of this very adult situation.  It was so extremely wrong of me and I will forever be regretful of my choice in those actions. I was not thinking it through and the full consequences of these actions.  I must reiterate that am sorry and will be forever sorry for doing that.

I am an honest person and writing has always been my outlet.  It is how I express my emotions.  Did I take my writing too far The past couple of days? Absolutely.  Did I forget my audience? UNDOUBTEDLY!!! I was angry and I was emotional.  However, Am I unstable as I was called? ABSOLUTELY NOT.  Just extremely emotional over a raw situation.  I am so sorry for dragging the 5th graders though things that may be over their heads.  I also want you to know that I NEVER gave them my phone number.  I have however, shared my personal email.

Anyway, the point of this is to offer my sincerest apologies for my blog posts that have offended you.  It was not m intention to offend you, but clearly I have and that truly, truly upsets me in knowing this.  I still cannot rest easy having now apologized, but I can at least know that you've heard my sincerest, most heartfelt apologies.  I only want the best for your children.  I truly love them endlessly and not seeing their faces daily is the hardest thing I have ever done.  Thank you for your understanding and I hope to have your forgiveness.  I truly love your students more than words.

...this isn't goodbye

...not for a loooooongshot.

My dear, sweet baby babes,

I am so, soooo very sorry that I did not get to say good bye today.  You see, some things came up and we did not get to say our goodbyes...our final goodbyes and give over final hugs. Goodbyes are the WORST aren't they?!?  Truly.  Especially when you don't see them coming. So many things are left unsaid, words left unspoken, thoughts left at the brink of lips, things welled at the tips of tongues and beating at the edges of our hearts, ready to burst like lava out of a swollen volcano. My goodness, goodbyes STINK, don't they?!? Indescribably. Did you forsee this one coming?  I SURE didn't.  I didn't anticipate it in the slightest.  Like, AT ALL.  Here I am, getting ready for work...ready to see my lovey loves (you) and all of a sudden, I'm there, telling my stories...yet here I am now at home...writing you this...a goodbye note of sorts. What a sudden turn of events.  An instant change. But is this how it all ends for us this year?  I doubt it.  I may be gone from 5th grade for you guys, but I hardly doubt I am gone for good from your lives.  I'll be popping up here and I'll be popping up there.  You certainly can't get rid of me THAT easily. With all that said, I must implore you: STAY IN TOUCH, okay?  PLEASE email me (abbybthomas@gmail.com) ...PLEASE call me.  I want to be at your games, I want to be at your events.  I. WANT. TO. Let's go to the park.  Lets go to the movies.  Let's go paint pottery.  Let's go to lunch.  Let's go to House of Boom.  Let's get Ice Cream.  Seriously.  Let's do it all!!!  I love it and I'd love nothing more than see you and spending quality time with you.  Hit. me. up. I will NOT be calling or texting you...let's make that abundantly clear, okay?!?  But please contact me, okay?!? ASAP!  Miss you ALREADY.  

Much love forever and always,

Mrs. T